milk money

Manila, the most retarded city!!

2008-09-23T07:54:00.002+02:00

I don't know what it is about this city, and the millions of people that decide to call this cesspool home.

First off, let me start by saying that I've tried to give Filipinos the benefit of the dooubt but I've reached a point where I just say "fuckit"....I ain't fronting no more.

They've got sense of importance that's beyond anything I've ever seeen from their media, and their politicians to some of their quasi-intellectuals.

Basically the Philippines is a Third World country fronting as a First World country with nothing to to show for it apart from a swanky skyline in Makati and Ortigas while a large section of the population live in the shittiest conditions I've seen this side of Nyanga.

I love the fronting though for its sad irony.

The craziest thing about the Philippines though is how everyone, I mean everyone wants to be white or appear to be white and its not the European white. They want the "pale" white which can only be achieved through a heavy regime of creams and pills. I see the results on the streets here everyday...so much so that one woman even claimed to be white when she was clearly not.

Filipinos need to start loving themselves beyond all the fakeness and delve into their histories beyond the colonial period.

A crazy night in Quezon City...party 2.

2008-09-23T07:28:00.003+02:00

Myself and Seng left there after about 90 minutes. Just as we reached the gate of the subdivision we bumped into one of Seng's friends- Ruta. Quickly he invited us for a beer at one of the tin shack bars along Quezon Avenue. We were only supposed to have one round of drinks but soon that turned into two and soon we were on our way to the redlight district of Cubao where our friend promised us a crazy show.

The street scene was crazy though with streetwalkers and their pimps all over the place as some of them even tried to pull me to one side to offer some "boom, boom".

I was a bit sceptical, after what I had seen in Bourgos Street. I expected to see scantily clad girls "stripping" but covered in lace and their underwear. After Ruta refused to poa

Well. I was pleasantly suprised when we walked into one of the joints after we refused to get into another one because, seeing me, the doorman decided to waive the usual free entrance. So off we headed to another joint next door.

As we entered the dimply lit room a naked body was coverting on a stage with two poles on each side. She tried her best to do the stripper thing but the casual observer who has seen these shows in other countries would be able to see that she was a rank amateur. Altough it should be said she was the best "stripper" on the night....the other girls just danced without emotion and some seemed to be totally space out as if they didn't want to be there.

There were nice girls though but most of them were ho-ish, you couldn't possibly walk down the street with one.

We eventually headed out of there at around 1am not before I had spoken to one of the girls and taken her number pretending to be some Colombian businessman named Pablo- she obviously didn't get the joke.

A crazy night in Quezon City...part 1

2008-09-23T07:02:00.002+02:00

Actually it started in the Quiapo where myself, Seng and Luke spent Sunday afternoon walking through the massive street market which stretches over four blocks. We then headed over to the Quiapo church which, although it is massive, was packed to the brim...so much so that people stood outside and watched a mass on jumbotron in an adjacent square.

There we waited for another friend of Seng who would accompany us to Manila's Chinatown where we would have a dinner. It took an hour though before my three friends could reach consensus on the authenticity of the Chinese radio restaurants. We eventually settled on a restaurant but not before we had to tell the Filipino waiters that their cutlery was chipped- which I found utterly shocking.

We had a massive meal afterwhich I felt like swollen pig ready at the slaughterhouse with a butcher looking on with his glistening knife. We rolled out of there and headed back to Quezon Avenue where our friends share an apartment in a subdivision....the story didn't end there though.

crash test dummy

2008-08-24T11:04:00.003+02:00

So here I am, its been more than 18 months since my last post on blogger. I've since moved onto facebook where I've got more people visiting mySPACE and get the music I listen to. I'm thinking that I should start a music blog, or just a blog about videos on youtube, or whatever takes my fancy. Right now though I'm too busy to think straight.

Awesome batting performance!

2007-02-03T02:09:00.000+02:00

Right now I'm going through some minor shit...I'm trying to tell my Eastern Cape beauty to fuck off as I'm allergic to controlling and manipulative bitches...all this while waiting for my honey who's currently in Mozambique to return next week.

Borat

2006-11-17T10:44:00.000+02:00

Was planning to watch Borat today with a couple of work colleagues but dunno if I'll be able to make it because I might be fucking the living daylights out of my fuckbuddy who should be here this afternoon.

It's hectic when you're...

2006-11-17T00:50:00.000+02:00

Trying to get laid.

Seriously though although I haven't had sex in a while( three weeks at last count) I can't exactly blame it on my lack of game...I've just not been going out enough to get any punani.

The last time I had sex it was friggin awesome...pounded my ex girlfriend the whole night and into the early hours of the morning...she orgasmed so loudly i thought the neighbours were going to bang on her door. That was fun, fucking her so hard.

Afterwards though I felt like a dirty dick because she's got a boyfriend and I thought I was getting back with my ex gf...the one I broke up with in January (shit, that's almost a year ago).

Three weeks later and I've been feeling awfully depressed...haven't felt so bad in months...work has always been hectic but at least one could balance it out with some good sex. Now that there was no sex, never mind good sex, forthcoming I was starting to feel edgy.

For two weeks I had a relationship with my PS2 and my favourite FPS...Black

Had a date lined up for this evening but she cancelled on me...came home refused to play Black and just lay down on my bed with the tv switched on for background noise...really felt low, no wait, I needed a tight, wet pussy real bad.

Sent my ex( the one I broke up with in Jan) a text message adn she returned one saying that she would pray for me...I then returned her message telling her in no uncertain terms to fuck off. I had just burnt a bridge.

Weird thing happens around the same time. I get a message from a fuckbuddy telling me how much she misses and could I please fuck her soon. Obviously I say yes.

So tomorrow I'll have the 22 year-old intern over and I'll fuck her brains out, she specifically asked for rough sex.

Ok...Daaglikse Stem!!

2006-10-17T22:58:00.000+02:00

Last time I posted here I just resigned my job and was finishing my notice period...Ok, now I'm working at the tabloid. It's hectic...today the news editor went into the labor because a picture could not be found for a big story.

Other than that it's been ok. I had my first accident last week when I bumped into a pillar at the company's garage...fender is slightly damaged but it will still need to be replaced...basically what it means is that I'll have to pay R1000 in excess for the insurance.

Frida night and I'm home alone...

2006-09-22T19:47:00.000+02:00

Actually it's not as bad as it sounds...I've chosen to be alone, I could've been having drinks with several of other folks I know from around the way but chose to be sitting here typing away on my computer.

This week has been relatively ok, nothing of substance...just as I'm trying to get a reprieve the women in my life are starting to move closer to my...it's actually weird...all the women who had somehow managed to annoy me this last couple of weeks came back and were nice, for once.

It's my final week working at the crappy paper were I've been working for the past year and I can't say I'm sad at the prospect of finally leaving.At times it felt like hell on earth but like Destiny's Child- I'm a Survivor.

Bloody cheek...

2006-09-18T12:49:00.000+02:00

This girl I was fuckin on the weekend really annoyed me when she asked me for money after I had offered to buy her a birthday present. I don't know whether she thought the R100 was compensation for the head she gave me but I she sensed that I was annoyed and later sent an sms apologising about her stunt.

too many women!

2006-08-20T13:06:00.000+02:00

I seriously don't know what's happening with me. For the first time in my life I've almost got access to a constant supply of pussy. Problem is I'm not fucking anyone's daughter at the moment. Really enjoyed chilling with Natasha last night, so much so that I paid for all the booze.

Let a player play...

2006-07-26T09:34:00.000+02:00

I shouldn't openly admitting this but of late I've become somewhat of a player...been seeing this one girl at work while still sleeping with my ex girlfriend and making connects to see other women. Tommorow I'm seeing one of these connects, she's ok...got a nice ass, ok tits and most important a nice personality.

The girl at work is cool but she's got some self-esteem issues, a result of being sheltered(and spoilt) too much by her parents. She wants to break free from their hold but fears she may fuck it up if she goes it alone. My aim is only to fuck her real hard and then come up with any excuse to leave her...right now she's still playing hardball with her pussy thinking that somehow I'll appreciate it more if it's delayed. Well, I couldn't give a fuck...if I got it this afternoon or next year it doesn't matter to me...one thing I do know is that I won't sticking with her for too long.

My ex girlfriend, she's nice but she wants to control me...I don't mind the little things but to totally dominate a relationship is fucked up, and my male ego hasn't even spoken yet. I just felt as if my balls were being squeezed in a vice grip and I had to break free. We're still on fucking terms though because as we both admitt, the sex was way too good to good.

Vive la France

2006-06-28T14:47:00.000+02:00

Last night I rushed out of the office, excited at the prospect of seeing Tsatsi again after more then a week of not seeing her. She was chilling with one of her friends at a favourite hangout on Long Street watching Ghana getting their asses kicked by Brazil...later we had drinks, chatted and to be honest I quite enjoyed the conversation although her friend was being a typical white- saying how she could live with all peaceloving folks. At that point I wanted to dare her to go out and live in Khayelitsha for a month.
Tsatsi seems to think that I want a girlfriend, well all I'm interested in is fucking her but she's making things very hard for me. It seems like a brotherman has to jump through several hoops and then when you think you're done you get an obstacle course to complete in a limited time...just gimme that pussy.

After two hours of BS talk I went home and felt like a pathetic pile of shit...caught the second half of the France/Spain match and have to say it was pretty awesome stuff- at least the second half. Ribery's goal was masterclass and so was Zidane's at theb end to kill off any Spanish hopes of lifting the World Cup.

Erratic postings

2006-06-22T12:40:00.000+02:00

Seriously, I need to pay more attention to this blog or I might as well close down my account with the good people here at Blogger.

What's been happening?
Since the last time I bothered making a post, I've broken up with my girlfriend..the one described in this blog and started seeing someone else. Well, I thought I was seeing someone else until I got the cold shoulder from her last night when I asked whether I could see her...all I got was a tired-sounding girl trying her best to put me off. Well, I've been put off and I'm not going to chase after her.

At work things have been going from bad to worse, I can't seem to get anything right according to my bosses...it's psychological warfare, I suspect they don't want to fire me but want me to quit my job. Don't think I'll give them that satisfaction.

Haven't been going to gym like I should and it's showing in my expanding girth..it's not massive but it's still alarming and could have negative effect on my pimp game.

Then there's the World Cup, I'll be honest I've not watched too many games, couldn't be bothered with all the kicking about even though I consider myself a football fan. I suppose the Champion's League this year has really spoilt me...now I'm trying to watch it when I can...ok, later today it's Ghana vs US...should be an interesting game, this year the US is much weaker and Ghana seems to flying the flag for Africa. Just a pity South Africa could not qualify for this spectacle, one of the reasons for my apathy towards the tournament.

Got myself a new toy last night...

2006-04-26T08:46:00.000+02:00

The cool thing about having a Toys R Us store around the corner from the crib is that there is never an excuse not to spend some cash...yesterday I did exactly that.
I was going to pick up my laundry from the laundromat when I popped into my favourite store(for now, at least) and saw that they had dropped the price of the PS2 console...I immediately made plans to buy it there and then. Came back from the laundromat and picked up my new toy along the way.

I got home, unpacked the thing as my girlfriend gave me an unapproving glance. "Is that thing going to come in the way now?" She asked as I assembled all the parts.

To appease the woman, I decided to hire two movies...I told her I'd go to the bar around the corner to watch the Arsenal-Villareal match. Arsenal won the two-legged semifinal by a single goal...brilliant penalty save by Jens Lehman to force a result.

Silly Dutch girl

2006-04-20T12:08:00.000+02:00

I discovered thisblog quite funny. It's about a Dutch girl who just happens to be in Cape Town and her observations on the city and it's people.

It'sa time I start blogging again

2006-04-18T10:03:00.000+02:00

Damn, it'a almost two months since my last blog entry and I can't believe how time has flied.

If you happen to read this blog, here's a short explantion for my absence: sex.

The girl I had my eye on back in Feb, well I finally nailed her to my cross...not that it was a difficult task...she was sending crazy vibes my way and it was only a matter of time before we would hook up...well the Friday following my last blog entry we did hook-up at a night out on the town(she invited me along).I'll spare the details suffice to say that's she's quite noisy in the sack.

We've been together for just over a month and so far it's good because she ain't too all up in my grill although we both have sex like rabbits and the funny thing is that I aint even tired like when I was with Cebisa.

Other than my rampant sex life, Jacob Zuma seems to have finally killed off any hopes of one day being presidnt of South Africa by his pathetic display in the witness stand...that was more than a week ago but it's still making news.

How does such a retard get to become deputy president of a country when he believes that taking a shower minimises your risk of catching Aids after sex with an HIV+ positive person.

That was basicaly the news in South Africa in a nutshell.

The stupidest crime

2006-02-24T08:37:00.000+02:00

I don't usually blog about crime as we've got enough going on in South Africa but this crime though is crazy, crazy because apparently David Best, an East London man paid someone to "stage a hijacking and shoot his pregnant girlfriend in the stomach this killing her baby".

I don't know what's happening in South Africa but it seems there is a trend amongst the well-off to take advantage of the crime in this countr for their own benefit.

Check the story here

I feel left out

2006-02-22T09:51:00.000+02:00

I feel like an outcast. Everyone in Cape Town has been bitching and moaning about power failures but myself and a couple of neighbours seem to be the only ones unaffected by this crisis.

Last night I watched a Arsenal beat Real Madrid at the Santiago Bernebeau without any interuptions...it seems like those with their hands on the power switch are Gooners because there was no way in hell I was going to miss this vital clash.

Amidst all the sex on the weekend I'm thinking of another girl, thing is tha she's a colleague...can't help myself though because those tits looks awesome when they're being given a lift by the miracle that is the Wonderbra.

Hopefully I can bang her this weekend when we're going out. I need some more pussy.
I'm trying to clear my mind of Carissa, it's good that she's gone because I felt like being suffcated on the weekend.

My craziest weekend ever...

2006-02-20T13:44:00.000+02:00

I don't think I've ever had so much sex in such a short period of time...from Friday right until today...we screwed like a couple of rabbits...thankfully she's gone now and my dick can take a break from all that action.

Wasn't going to blog about cartoons but...

2006-02-10T16:58:00.000+02:00

Came across this blog by Hans Henrik Lichtenberg...he came across some wild conspiracy theories, the first one seems suspect but the second one is plausible.

Anyway, I was at a march by about 20 000 Muslims in Cape Town wher they vented their anger at the cartoons- where were they five months ago when the whole drama started? It seems like they're all a bunch of sheep willing to be lead by corrupt Arab leaders.

There weren't any burning of flags but some people went to the march looking to cause shit that would get them noticed by cameramen.

Have to say that "Down, Debmark, Down" sounded a bit weird...never in my lifetime did I think that the Danes would cop this much BS from Muslims.

Cocaine, morphine and nicotine

2006-02-08T21:16:00.000+02:00

I'm feeling really weird, ishould'v.e been on a bus to Bloemfontein but cancelled at the last minute. I got the feeling that Carissa was not being honest when she told me all of a sudden that her auntie had come to visit her leaving me with nowhere to sleep... I was not having any of that so I cancelled my trip.
I was supposed to get pussy this weekend instead I'll be turning 28 at the crib with my closest fam.
At least I'll save some money staying home.

Break up, three days later I'm in "love"

2006-02-04T23:31:00.000+02:00

Yeah shit is really funny...today I was on the phone with Carissa we talked for what seemed an eternity(must've been 20 mins)...I think we moved one step closer, 20 minutes after dropping the call she sends me a text message saying she's in love.
At that moment the only thought on my mind was dicking her, seriously she couldn't keep me intellectually occupied for two seconds...so I guess next I'll be fucking someone's daughter in Bloemfontein.

And I see that some Syrians finally made good on their threats and burnt down the Danish and Norwegian embassies in Damascus while Danes were out on the streetsprotesting either for or against the cartoons.

If this shit is still in the news next week I'm going to ask Osama bin Laden to surrender live on Al-Jazeera to US Rangers.

Look who got his knickers in a knot over some cartoons

2006-02-04T14:45:00.000+02:00

Although I've been following the controversy around the Muhammad cartoons which seems to have everyone and his mother talking about the freedom of speech since late last year when I first read about it. Since then what should have been a minor blip on the news radar has been allowed to rage for months and was further inflamed when several European newspaper published the controversial cartoons this week...why they published it is everyone's guess, me thinks they used freedom of expression to hide behind a veil of hatred. It's a well-known fact that for many Muslims immigrants adapting to life in Europe has been anything but smooth sailing...I wonder what will happen to me if tommorow, due to some war in my country I end up in Saudi Arabia. Would I be allowed to start a prayer group for refugees? I doubt it, chances are that I'll be persecuted from here to enternity for challenging Islam.
If anyone tells me Islam is the religion of peace I might just be tempted to sue them because what happens in practice is quite the opposite.

World's first full-length movie shot on a phone

2006-02-03T09:47:00.000+02:00

It was only a matter of time before this happened but yeah, we're the first to produce a movie using only cellphones. I'm actually thinking of getting the Sony Ericsson W900i when it get's released over here...should start puting some money away.

What this blog is all about!

2006-02-02T09:01:00.000+02:00

Well, it definitely ain't about current news events although I sometimes refer to them and it definitely ain't about making the world a better place...well for me it's just a place where I come to write down my thoughts.

Yes, there is racism in Cape Town...it might be subtle, but it's definitely there.

Come to think of it, last night was so fucking hot I don't know how I managed to sleep...plus when I got home my place was stinking...my ex gf had left out cooked veggies in the kitchen...add heat to that and you've got a big stink...so I had to spray air freshner all over the place before I could sit down and watch Pirates of the Caribbean...which I couldn't finish watching because I was exhausted from the heat and feeling a bit tipsy following a couple of drinks after work with a colleague.

Break-ups, no make ups!!

2006-02-01T17:02:00.000+02:00

After just over a year my relationship with Cebisa finally kicked the bucket...breaking up with her was the weirdest thing because she was still in my bed, I was still lying naked when I told her that I was not feeling "us" no more...she was puzzled by the suddenness, even though we had spoken about it the previous day over lunch.

Ok, it was a bit out of the blue...but I couldn't keep on living a lie.

This morning she removed her stuff from my flat, we got into a taxi which tok us to the station where we parted with a kiss...hardly any sign of hatred.

Maybe I need my space, maybe I'll wake up next week and realise what stupid fool I've been these last couple of weeks but right here and now it feels like the right decision.

Weird vibes

2006-01-29T22:30:00.000+02:00

More and more I've been getting the feeling that perhaps it would my girlfriend to call it a day. We're definitely not spending enough time together, seemingly she thinks everything is cool.
I'm still planning to visit Carissa in Bloemfontein early next month.
Kissing her opened my eyes to the fraud I thought was a relationship..

2006-01-27T11:11:00.000+02:00

By now everyone midly interested in world politics has heard about the Palistinian election result.

Hamas suprisingly emerged victorious from a race that seemed certain to return a corrupt Fatah to power of PA...well, only problem is Palestinians didn't exactly follow the script prepared for them in Washington.

Reading the newspapers, blogs, and anything sensible that I could lay my eyes on I've come to the conclusion that this is not the sort of democracy Bush had in mind when he set about "freeing" the Middle East four years ago.

Well, all I can say is "deal with it"...Hamas was elected by the Palestinians, Bush and his co-horts better start beating a path down to Ramallah.

Is it all coming apar?

2006-01-12T17:17:00.000+02:00

I might end up with jack if I decide to drop my girlfriend because yesterday I made the discovery that the girl I'm planning to visit in Bloemfontein was lying to me about where she worked.

So now I'm thinking how can I even contemplate seeing someone who lies to me and I really want to go out to Bloemfontein...guess I'll have to cancel the trip.

Fasting

2006-01-05T14:50:00.000+02:00

This week I intentionally ignored my girlfriend, perhaps because I felt guilty at having cheated on her or perhaps because I've reached a point where I'm tired of her shit. I was seriously contemplating breaking up with her for fucking up my New Year...I mean how theb fuck can you drag me off to some concert, which I paid for, then an hour past midnight tell me that you're tired and want to go home? WTF?

And then in the morning when a brotherman wants some New Years Day pussy you tell me that you tired? WTF? I something wrong with me or is this woman just working on my nerves.

Perhaps it should also be added that since I kissed Carissa, I've picked up on my girlfriend's weak points. I'm not being total asshole because I've put up with her shit for close one a year and since we've started living together shit has intensified to such an extent that at times I feel trapped.

So this is the reason for the fast. To be honest, I've not even missed the sex because now I've got more energy in the mornings.

Will meet her later tonight to see if we can squash out something.

First post for 2006 and I'm feeling....

2006-01-03T10:18:00.000+02:00

Like dumping my girlfriend although it's unlikely. I don't know why but the last time I saw her she just seemed to annoy me a lot. We spent New Years Eve together- she slept over at my place but the thing is she was annoying as fuck the whole evening.

It started off with her demanding that we go to a music concert for New Years Eve which turned out to be shitty- I hate crowds on New Years Eve. Secondly we hooked up with her best friend and her boyfriend at this concert...I hate double dates.

Then we had to leave when her best friend and said boyfriend wanted to leave which was totally fucked up considering I parted with quite a lot of money for the tickets also considering that she was stressing me the whole day to buy the tickets.

Now a few posts back I mention this other girl I met while I was on holiday, the thing is I haven't spoken to her all of yesterday which should be some sort of a good sign.

I don't know how it came to this but pretty tired of my girlfriend's shit and to think we'll be celebrating our anniversay in a couple of weeks.

It should be said that I'm feeling good about work.

Damn what a hot place

2005-12-28T10:34:00.000+02:00

Damn so I'm back in Cape Town from my sojourn up in hot and dusty Kimberley.

For the second time this year I cheated on my girlfriend, this time it was not intentiona...as the week dragged on in Kimberley I was getting lonely and was scared that the heat was fucking with my sex drive because I didn't even have a hard-on in the morning.

I have to say though that the Serissa- the girl I cheated with is damn fine, shit she's a dime piece. I haven't seen a girl as beautiful as her in long time except for my girlfriend who's another dime peice.

Serissa's a friend of my cousin(he once screwed her). She's currently in a relationship with someone in Bloemfontein and seeing another friend of my cousin on the side for the occasional "booty call". I know this all sounds fucked up but I'm not the Pope and my moral compass is still intact.

It started off when she called me to do a slow dance with her...I obliged. What happened on the dancefloor is another story alltogether- we kissed in front of a whole lot of people.

Soon after that I left the club with my cousin because it wasn't pumping enough. We went back to the ghetto, when it got there it was DOA...so we slept.

Next evening I see her again, went over to the her moms house and had a couple of drinks(which I bought BTW) an hour or two later we were at it again, outside her house and this time I almost went nuts because she's so damn fine...her body is soooo tight it shouls be deemed illegal.

I've been back in Cape Town a day and she's been sending me text messages(I've also been guilty by returning them)...next month I'm celebrating me and my girlfriend's first anniversary(my longest stretch with a girlfriend)...I certainly don't need all this drama that could certainly fuck things up if my girlfriend were to go through my messages.

It's so bloody hot

2005-12-18T22:31:00.000+02:00

This week I find myself in my mothers place of birth and where most of her family still find themselves- Kimberley.
I once lived here for a year as a pre-pubescent but I still haven't gotten use to the semi-deser climate.
It's hot without any relief...they're seriously in need of a beach. During the day one can't do shit due to the heat and at night things improve slightly.

It's almost there

2005-12-16T10:25:00.000+02:00

This whole week I've been suffering from a pain in the neck, at times I felt that someone could just snap off my neck and it would be ok because the pain has been a bitch and all week I've had to work- thankfully it's not strenuous.

I'm finishing off work today and then I'm leaving town for a week to spend the Christmas with family in Kimberley. My mother says that I'm neglecting them- I say I need space away from the madness.

My girlfriend spent the night at my place and have to say for about 45 minutes my neck was all good because we made some beautiful love- trying not to do the funky things that may have lead to this stiff neck.

I haven't done much Christmas shopping, will be checking out some shirts for my aunts husband but that's about it.

Relationships?

2005-12-03T09:58:00.000+02:00

As a journalist I find that at times politicians/sources will abuse me to advance their own objectives, I've got not problem with that as long as everything is reciprocal. I don't want money or a nice new job, just give me info when I need it.

Seemingly two senior journalists from the Cape Argus could/would not draw the line between being objective and masquarading as spies for political interests.

What has since emerged since the story broke on Monday was that both reporters strategised the communications policy for the premier of the Western Cape- even though they were journalists.

Blackman Ngoro has waded into the debate by claiming on his website that the two were out to destroy mayor Nomaindia Mfeketo by publishing stories that would damage her.

eBay sucks right about now

2005-11-20T10:48:00.000+02:00

I'm not reading like I used to!

2005-11-18T17:53:00.000+02:00

It's been something that's been bothering me for the last couple of months...I've got all these books, some brand new, that I've never read. Problem is that I can't find the time to read them in between a girlfriend, work, life, work, and my girlfriend.

I'm feeling fookin stupid having bought all these books now not getting the time to read them.

I'm not sure what I'm doing tonight...guess this cold will keep me at home, I could go out and watch a movie but right now I'm not feeling like infecting random strangers with the sniffles.

I should say that I'm looking forward to the (MF)DOOM+Ghostface collabo like an Aids patient awaiting a cure...fuck, hope it aint disappointing.

Crap Idol

2005-11-17T12:52:00.001+02:00

I've tried avoding it but this bit of popular South African culture is unavoidable. Each day I'm confonted by it like a huge zit on my nose that I just can't squeeze.

I'm referring to"Idols the SA version of the British "Pop Idol" ...The only difference being that in the South African version the producers forget to tell the starry-eyed hopefuls that their success, once the show ends will be limited.

In Three seasons of Idols there've been a couple of exceptions but for the most part participants disappear off the radar once they're out of the public conciousness.

I should also add that a majority of South Africans couldn't give a fuck about the show as it is clearly aimed at the white demographic, this means that any black person wishing to take part in the show already starts off on the backfoot because white viewers will vote them off first, it should be said there have been exceptions but in the two previous seasons of the show no black person has won it...Last year a talentless white girl from the Free State won it...nothing has been heard of her eversince even though her prize included a recording contract( I can make records in my bedroom using a Mac and ProTools).

The first winner, Heinz Winckler, has retained some public persona but isn't known outside his traditional white market...and he was supposed to be a Pop star. Sorry, but South African popular music is kwaito and hip-hop not some half-baked talentless shite that no-one will remember come this time next year.

The current crop participating on Idols are just a bunch of glorified karaoke singers

Crap Idol

2005-11-17T12:52:00.000+02:00

Things that's bothering me of late

2005-11-05T10:11:00.000+02:00
For one, the riots in Paris have upset me even though it's thousands of kilometres away in another continent. I haven't watched much television news owing to the fact that I'm busy and I've been following the events on the internet and newspapers. The precedent this will set is pretty scary for any peace-loving human.
France is to blame for allowing this situation to manifest itself to a point where rioters set a bus passenger alight. They also need to take the blame for not intergrating immigrant communities into society...Zindane winning the World Cup for Frnace merely covered the cracks...lots of work needs to he done to make intergrate immigrant youth into society, a society that seems scared to share, scared perhaps for the unknown that is Islam at a time when Al-Qaeda has declared all out war against everything that's not Muslim- at least there version of Islam.

It's almost summer

2005-10-20T11:30:00.000+02:00
Strange things are happening in Cape Town with squatters seemingly being ligitimised by the city council. Now the story goes that these people could be moved at a moment's notice...the question though is will they be willing to move? Local government elections are coming up and rest assured the Democratic Alliance will capitalize on the outrage of having squatters in an area earmarked for development.

Might be moving again

2005-09-28T22:45:00.000+02:00
Today I went and viewed a flat in Green Point...nice area, so so flat but I ain't complain because it's what I can afford at the mo.

There's still a long bureaucratic process I have to undergo before my lease agreement is confirmed..credit checks and whatnot but I'm sure I don't owe anyone money.

For someone who had his hart horribly broken about two years ago I should learn never again to mention the word MARRIAGE, whenever I do things seem to fall apart.

This week I've been considering buying a new smartphone, laptop or spending all that money and more and moving into a new apartment. I went for the apartment...I can't sleep in either a smartphone or a laptop.

Uhmmm.

2005-09-12T20:32:00.000+02:00
I'm still cool...got some good news today...heard that I'll be getting R3400 which my old job still owes me from unclaimed annual leave. There goes the deposit for the new flat.

Got two stories in the newspaper which is aight for my first week but I really want to go out there and kill them- literally that is.

Yesterday went to church with my girlfriend and the experience was as expected and also a bit suprising when people started feeling guilty, crying all over the place. I just don't get it- tears won't bring you redemption. Going to church won't make a better person out of you it has to come from the heart.

Sitting there in that church I felt like the biggest fraud in the land. The pastor hadn't convinced me that there really was a GOD...it only confirmed by belief that people seek salvation in bad times when they can't find answers to the complex problems that life seeks from them.

I'm not going to judge people who are Christians- my girlfriend included- but I won't be ignorant to the real cause of all problems. I believe that problems that people face, mostly psychological, arise out of ones conditions. How to manage these problems is where I differ from churches. I don't believe that praying a million times will make things right...just believe that it can happen and make changes in you life to accomodate the change.

I also believe in the power of meditation...by simply relaxing and using breath control people can lower their stress levels which makes living in the 21st century such a bitch.

I'm sorry!

2005-09-09T18:26:00.000+02:00
Sex last night almost killed me...maybe not killed me but it definitely sapped my energy...today I came to work feeling like I hadn't slept last night and I must've had seven hours of solid sleep.

Don't know how many times I've said this but Joburg is a filthy place...after spending a day there earlier this week I'm more convinced that an atom bomb would do more good than bad- they could actually start rebuilding the mess that is Jozi or Emsawawa as we know it.

After panicking as usual this morning things actually turned out quite well for me... three stories done and I might be out of here anytime now.

Tonight I'm again seeing the Danish chick...last night I decided not to persue her because guilt had gotten the best of me...How could I be doing something like this to me girl when she gives me good head and never complains about shit.

So no, I won't be screwing no 21 year-old Great Dane. She's tasty though plus she likes smoking trees.

It's freezing

2005-08-26T21:12:00.000+02:00

Today must've been one of those days that give Cape Town a bad rep when it comes to the weather- absolutely shitty. I always try and defend my hometown but this is weather is indefensible.

Don't know what I'm doing later tonight, one thing I know is to get myself some good red wine....it's good for the cold.

Had lunch with my friend Sabrina this afternoon, enjoyed it until some overbearing woman turned up with another friend of mine. Damn, it's true what they say about fat people, they always have to hog the limelight...this woman was really an attention whore...within minutes of meeting me she was talking to me as if we had known each other for years...I'm not a prick or anything but she certainly won't get an invite to my next party....gettafukkoutofhere.

Sore throat!!!

2005-08-19T21:15:00.000+02:00
Damn today I've been suffering from a bit of sore throat...lots of phlegm but I'm not feeling sick, probably the last remnants of the flu.

Off to sleep over at Cebisa, hope she's not too demanding tonight.

Fuck it, my ears hurt!!

2005-08-16T19:17:00.000+02:00
Got off a plan more than an our ago and my ears still hurt from the change in pressure as it was descending...flight was also a bit choppy with lots of turbulance.

Tommorrow I'll have to write a letter of resignation at the Cape Times and hopefully there shouldn't be any problems cause I announced my intention a week ago.

Joburg was dry as a motherfucker, would hate living there but know it's only a matter of time before I'll have to make the Great Trek up North to Gangsta's Paradise.

Miss my girl a lot and tonight I'm sleeping over at her place to make up for the time I've been away from her.

I'm madly in love with her although I don't always show it.

New job

2005-08-12T13:53:00.000+02:00
This week has been one of many decisions...I've decided to take the new job with a bit of apprehension...won't be burning my bridges though.

Apart from that I've got to deal with a flu and a gf who wants to have sex with me today..don't know how a sick man is supposed to keep it up, there should be a law against the this.

Also got invited up to Jozi so won't be at work on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday.

Decisions, decisions....decisions.

2005-07-29T23:27:00.000+02:00
The next couple of weeks will see me having to make some tough decisions about my career.

City Press offered me a job, obviously I had to go for an interview...I went to the interview...it felt good- they didn't ask me too difficult questions and there was no way I was bullshitting that panel.

If I do get the job I'll have to resign from the Cape Times, merely three weeks after signing a new contract...damn. Also things at the Cape Times have been going ok for me recently so it'll feel bad just leaving there.

I've told my moms and my gf about the potential new job but the final decision on whether I'll take it will eventually rest with me...I don't want anyone influencing me.

Ok, I've got it off my chest. Think I need to go on with partying.

back in Cape Town.

2005-07-17T20:05:00.000+02:00
Couldn't post last night due to some problem with the PC.

Joburg and Durban were a bit disaapointing- maybe I wasn't expecting Durban to be as filthy as it was but anyway it was cool being out there and seeing the places. Next time I'm going will take my girlfriend along.

Tommorrow it's back to work and the grind of nightshift. Got a nice job offer from a Sunday newspaper...will take it if there's nothing forthcoming from the Cape Times.

Please forgive me

2005-07-10T17:56:00.000+02:00
I haven't blogged in a while...sex, work, blah dee blah dee blah...a mountain of excuses why I couldn't sit down take two minutes to write a journal.

Well right now I'm in Durban...supposedly South Africa's fun capital but this is actually a very cheap place compared to Cape Town and you don't get much for your money. The centre of town is a shit hole unfit for a humans but seemingly thousands of people seem to thrive here, that tells you something about black people they'll accept most things thrown at them especially if it was discarded by whities who gave up on this bitch many years ago and passed out a crack whore for black folk to feed off.

"Now how the fuck are you going to breastfeed me bitch, you've got rail marks all over your arms?"

That's Durban in a short summary.

By tommorow I should know where I'd be headed next on my meander...it's cool not havcing to think about work at all this week.

Should've brought that Zion-I record along for the trip...damn it's got some dope beats and the lyrics as always are powerful- can't come with no weak shit.

Peace out, my time is running out.

My girlfriend...

2005-06-04T19:27:00.000+02:00
wants us to get more serious while I've been hanging out with other women. How fucked up can life be? Eight months ago I was desperate to get laid now all of sudden pussy is jumping at me from all angles and this shit is seriosly fucking with my concentration.

Damn, I cheated...

2005-06-04T18:45:00.000+02:00
On my girlfriend last night with some Swiss girl who seems to be as confused as 80% of the white girls that I come into contact with. Haven't posted in a while but the onset of winter blues will see me here more often...I can see a depressing time ahead, the only things that can save me from this hell is blogging and raw sex- lets just call it animalistic fucking.

About last night. Went with this girl to a party coz my girlfriend couldn't go- she was busy at work. I've been flirtin with Miss Switzerland for a while now but she had a crush on a colleague who is clueless around women...anyway to make a long story short she told my colleague how she felt but the dumb motherfucker reacted like someone had told him he just tested positive for HIV...so she tells me about his reaction and I'm trying to comfort her.

Fast forward a couple of days and we're at this party, after a few glasses of red wine and lots of conversation we started making out in front of all the other guests at the party...Who gives a shit anyway...I'm really starting to feel her and we jump into a cab, we head to a bar and drown a couple of heavy ones...she's still angry, we kiss and head over to her place. Shit, I aint got any condoms...damn...how cruel can life be? But we're ain't having sex though even she's trying to play with me...shared a bed but that was about it...maybe some heavy petting as well.

My gf finds out about this and I'm dumped for sure.

Boring movie!!

2005-04-01T18:47:00.000+02:00
Watched my first pathetic movie of the year on the suggestion of my girlfriend- Spanglish. I've seen worst but how fucked up can Adam Sandler be? I mean that actually cast him as a 40- year old with two kids and you can see he still wants to do some pranks. The acting was pathetic to say the least...a good message was lost with bad casting and a terrible script. I hate bitching about this shit.

Damn...how long has it been?

2005-03-20T14:45:00.000+02:00
Seriously haven't posted in a while...not that I haven't had anything to say...just never got around to spilling my guts on my blog...too little time. Now I'm just popping in to say that I'm still alive...I'm still as in love as the last time, and no I haven't discovered any skeletons in her closet.

Phone problems...not actually

2005-02-27T09:18:00.000+02:00
Last week was actually quite a good one that was until Friday when I bought a brand new phone...must've used it for half an hour...the battery died...I charged the battery. And that's exactly the problem...I'm still charging the battery with no sign of life from the phone...think I'll take it back tommorrow.

The week has actually been good...in a good twist of fate I got offered a job at the newspaper after being on contract for five months...apparently one of the successful applicants for the job withdrew his application at the 12th hour...good luck for me. Now I can move into my own place and have some future security.

Right now I'm sitting next to this horrible Dutch bitch( I once had a crush on her...ughhhh) and I'm totally oblivious of her presence...call me a fart, I know I am.

I got burgled

2005-02-17T18:49:00.000+02:00
For the first time I was actually the victim of crime...and by someone I thought was a friend.
On Monday my camera got stolen...felt pissed off when I discovered the theft that evening but let it slide as soon as i found out who it was. My chances of ever get it back are slim/none because he's probably sold it for R500....the camera cost in the region of R4000....that hurts but I've decided to stress myself. The thief won't be happy.

This week didn't see much of my girlfriend...even though the whole world celebrated Valentines Day, all I could give her was a kiss.

Dangerously in Love!!!

2005-01-28T13:47:00.000+02:00
Yeah it was bound to happen to me at some point this year...the dry spell couldn't persist for so long. So I've been officially going out with Cebisa for a week...yeah we spoke about it last week while walking on the beach, and having a pizza in between her telling me that she didn't want me to lose much weight- WTF? I'm cool though, actually I'm not because I think I'm obsessed with her- she's bloody beautiful and I can't help but mnetion it to any person who's in earshot.

I'm havin my phone fixed this afternoon because I've noticed that I can't receive her text messages- it's vitally important that we communicate.

Yesterday I spent almost two hours at the traffic department, failed my learners license and you should've seen the motherfuckers when I just wanted to check my script- could swear they were filled with hatred.

Other than having my stories cut and not having much in the newspaper I'm cool...I really think I need to get the fuck out of there because the editor gave me a shitty look earlier in the week which was pretty ominous. Pre-emptive strike is more appropriate.

Aching muscles...

2005-01-20T09:11:00.000+02:00
Really, I was at the gym two days ago with a motley of crew consisting of the guilty, overweight and the freaks that haunt these places...My only reason for joining this crowd was for the sheer indulgence( I can afford to splurge) and also because I I had picked up some weigh(I weighed 85kg's when I hit the scales).

But I know it's going to be a tough road, I've already changd my eating habits...I aint getting any food from the cafeteria...that's too grasy for my liking.

Lately been listening to the Ghostface Pretty Toney album...it's fire.

All smoked out and nowhere to go...

2005-01-12T15:15:00.000+02:00
Actaully I retired to my bed last night after driving home for what seemed like an eternity. See the thing is last night someone( yeah I suspect this to be a person) decided to start a fire on top of Signal Hill...luckily though noy much damage was caused but the millionaire cribs down the slope of the hill looked to be in danger from runaway flames.

Coincidentally I was standing in front of friend's house, living in Green Point and he didn't know there was a fire burning on the mountain side..."I thought someone had left teh stove on" was his reply when I asked what he thought all the fuss outside his house was about.

I joined the gym this afternoon and I'm determined to loose all this excess weight that I've picked up these last four months...I'm really not happy with body...need to get some more muscle.

Blogging like I never blogged before...

2005-01-06T18:53:00.000+02:00
I've been on blogger for about six months and it feels good expressing my feelings to the world or whoever just happens to stumble upon this blog...it was never meant to be read by millions...I'll just say this is my public diary, a way for other people to know whats happening in my life without having to know who I am.
Today I spent about five hours working on the story of an English hooligan who had defaced Newlands cricket staduim with racist grafitti. He was all apologetic in court but we know he don't like darkies.

Asked Cebisa out on another date, maybe this time we can enjoy ourselves at a Jazz concert. I'm really feeling her but haven't spent enough time to express my feelings. This week Tasneem told me in no uncertain ways that she and this new guy were getting serious, to the point that she sounded smug while I spoke to her on the phone. Fuck her any way.

Repercussions

2005-01-03T18:13:00.000+02:00
See, this shit always happens...bitches can't keep their mouths shut. Yesterday morning was greeted by the news that I had "attacked somone's breasts"...I'm like nah, it was all consensual there was no "forced entry", hell I couldn't force anything even if I wanted to because the house was filled with people and forcing someone into doing something aint quite my style.

Called my ex gf today and the bitch was seriously smug and being in love. Damn, how did I end up looking like a loser?

Elevation

2005-01-01T16:46:00.000+02:00
Last night got pretty pissed off a bottle of Absolut, shit was heavy...Don't know if there will be any repercussions but I asked a lesbian if I could suck on her tit and she allowed me...damn, she had a pair of the nicest titties I've seen.

Still nursing this massive hangover, feels like I was in the ring with Mike Tyson...head is battered.

Lets hope 2005 is free of warfare and peace prevails but with a warmonger in the White House my dreams will remain exactly that, dreams.

I decided to theme 2005 the year of elevation, lets all elevate.

Work Worries!!

2004-12-13T18:33:00.000+02:00
Have been quietly strtessing about finding a job next year when my contract expires at the newspaper..I don'think they'll be renewing it...just holding thumbs but they way things are looking it doesn't seem too good for me working at the newspaper.

Met this awesome girl about a month ago but had forgotten about her until she called me the other day...today I called her, telling her that I've been thinking about her the whole weekend...damn, I don't need this now but I'm loving it.

Saw her at the Love Parade!!

2004-11-24T18:49:00.000+02:00
No there's no Love Parade going down...the last time someone tried staging it iun Cape Town it turned out to be a HUGE flop with no-one turning up and the whole event looking like a bad copy of it's Berlin namesake.

Well, whats been happening with me...nothing much beside the joy at hearing that my friend had broken up with her boyfriend of one month...The joy was shortlived though because I was jolted back into reality soon after with her wanting to spend more time with me...plutonic friendship. I can live with friendship but please bitch, don't jerk me around...I want some of that pussy..

Tommorrow is pay and I should seriously be looking at moving into an apartment of my own, first I've got to get some some cash money together and manager to convince someone to lease me a flat for 6 months.

Better Days

2004-11-12T16:02:00.000+02:00
Haven't posted in a while even though I've been on the net a lot this week.

Felt really weird last weekend. I got a text message from my ex asking me what I was doing...it's weird because I always thought she had lost all interest in me.

I've finally given up any hope on landing this chick at work...But as soon as one door closes, another one opens. Met this awesome PR girl at a job I was doing in the week...I know these women are paid to bullshit but she just came across so down to earth- the type of girl I want to take home. Called her back the same day but she was a bit cool at the idea of me trying to get to know her...but I'm gone be working it this following week.

Young gifted and black

2004-10-29T11:20:00.000+02:00
Don't know what it is about me... I was going about life like every other man, working...partying and generally stressing about my job.

Now peep this. Yesterday I spotted an old girlfriend in the city centre yesterday...she looked quite scrumptious and later at work I thought about her, went called her.

Luckily for me she was home alone, house-sitting her boyfriend's apartment who is currently in German. Asked her if I could come stop by for a chat but I had more in mind.

Went over there prepared, condoms...the works....channes were good that pussy was on the menu, I already knew she was a freak ...no suprises after about 30 minutes of me arriving at the flat we got it going on her boyfriend's bed...the same bed on which he had fucked her countless times.

Joked to her about it this morning. That I was fuckin her on the German's bed, in his luxury apartment, and leaving cum stains on his linen.

This morning I got a blowjob as a parting shot before I left the apartment.

Fuck sometimes it sure feels good being YOUNG, BLACK AND GIFTED.

Differences

2004-10-25T21:32:00.000+02:00
This morning the air needed to be cleared with the object of my affection(only problem is that she still doesn't know)...Yesterday both us were angry when we said goodbye, thought fuck it..this woman is playing with a brotherman's heart and she doesn't even know the effect she's got on me.
Ok, I ain't turning blind or anything but still for a couple of weeks I had a mad crush on her. Dunno what to do, I could act like a desperate mo'fo and ask her to the movies tommorrow...think I should.

Other than the day was spent in court and later dealing with an editor that's full of shit dissecting a story to the tiniest detail.

Uhhhh, ahhhh, haaaa

2004-10-22T10:35:00.000+02:00
Feeling kinda broke this Friday...I'm supposed to go to a party tonight but I'm seriously running on fumes.

I don't think I've given up on love just yet, from now on though I'll try not to force the issue and feel shity about not getting laid.

Last week at the party, all the guys noticed that my friend had a good pair of melons on her...damn those tatas looked nice...wouldn't mind sucking on them myself.

Got some kind of good news yesterday, I'll be going for an interview for one of my job applications.

Found out yesterday that the girl I've been having my eye on has an admirer...cat has been treating her for two days, taking her to the movies and dinner....while I was at home playing the role of the broke cat. Damn, life's truly a bitch at times but I aint stressing about her.

Right now though I've got to go down on my knees and ask my sister for some cash money until I get paid on Monday.

Another week, not much dollars

2004-10-16T15:07:00.000+02:00
The week finishes with me being more confused about life in general than at the start of this week. I thought I'd tell this girl that I liked her but the more I get too know her the more apprehensive I get about approaching her. Besides, I don't think I need a serious relationship just now.

Work was again mixed. How I manage to get up five days a week,go to work and encounter a hostile night editor suprises me. I guess it's the money.

Last night went to a party...probably not the best organised party I've been to but at least there was a cool mix of people- I don't think they numbered more than 15.

Met my friend who this week came back from Thailand, didn't say too much about the place except that it was cheap being there and the women were beautiful- I don't expect anything less fron Thailand.

Also me an interesting girl at the party last night, unfortunately she came with her boyfriend so there was no chance that we could hook-up.

This week I'm trying to do a story on carbon credits... Got a call from a former minister who's now a director of a company wanting start the sale of carbob credits...Interesting.

Bollocks

2004-10-06T19:57:00.000+02:00
Had another one of this shitty days...it didn't get shitty until about 7pm. Worked my ass off on a story, got everything right only to be railroaded by some asshole on the newsdesk who won't cut a brotherman some slak...Seriously when I left there this evening I felt like bursting out in tears..that's how bad I felt because I had shown initiative I get punished.

Right now I'm also busy applying for a job because the way things are looking it doesn't seem like my contract will be renewed...I have this feeling because I've been getting foul stares directed my way. This morning some ugly bitch who wears to much make-up made a racists comment veiled as sarcasm but I didn't respond to the bitch...just didn't have the energy for a fight early in the morning with a senior reporter.

The Dutch girl seems to have cooled to me, dunno what it is but something changed between us...maybe it's the fact that I don't eat pork or ambiguity about my religious beliefs...only God knows...I'm writting her off as a potential girlfriend...too many isues, plus she works with me.

2004-10-01T19:03:00.000+02:00
Dunno what it is about this girl, we know the same people( kinda) and went to the same Technikon( I had departed when she started out)...Now she's in Jozi, I'm in Cape Town and I will be seeing her within 3 weeks...WTF? Brotherman is nervous like Benni McCarthy, I've been doing some intelligence gathering on this lady but the results are still inconclusive...I hate these suprise encounters when you don't know what to expect.

This week has been seriously butt, I mean I felt like some of those journos at the Sowetan who go for weeks without their bylines appearing in the newspaper...This week has been one of those...truly shitty...and then to top it all off I called an ex girlfriend from high school( circa 93) and the woman was dumbstruck to say the least when she got to hear who was on the other side of the line...BTW, she's got a 6 year-old...so there you have it, I've got a ready-made family waiting for me if I choose to persue my high school sweetheart who's know probably 15kg's heavier and the proud owner of some saggy tits.
I was supposed to hook-up with some Namibian cat who thinks he knows shit without knowing much but I stood him down...wanted to go drinking( where I was going to pay for all the drinks)...never returned his call, and the bugger should've left a voicemail.

Feeling tired...

2004-09-26T20:20:00.000+02:00
I'm an internet cafe, just finished my run...thinking of running back the 4km's....muscles are feeling strained, but not quite out of it. Suprisingly I recovered quickly from Friday's gruelling run (I hadn't done it in a while)...I think I can do this every evening.

My day at work went ok, did a couple of stories...restaurant patrons being held up, and one chap being smacked upside the head for trying to be tough.

Will be making a couples of calls when I get home about a couple of places I've seen advertised. Need to find a place to stay that's within walking distance of my downtown office...I also need a place that's located in a flat area(I run a lot, would hate to run up/downhill).

I'm out for the night....need to rest, before that I've got to run back.

Aching muscles....

2004-09-25T16:58:00.000+02:00
Ok, got my first paycheck from the paper, sure feels damn good knowing that you'll have some money to spare. Went out and bought a pair of running shoes.

Went out running with them last night to wear them in, they felt good compared to usual running shoes(Nike) but they felt a bit heavy because my knees were knackered afterwards...I still went to the club, and danced for around 3 hours to some of the shittiest music- call it Mongrel dance music, they take a normal RnB song and play it over an awfull beat.

I almost kissed my bible-reading friend, who I had intentions on, last night in a tug over me grabbing her cellphone. She wouldn't give me her number, WTF?

Life, love and everything else!

2004-09-21T20:53:00.000+02:00
Had an embarrassing moment today, well lets not call it a moment...just
>call it a whole three hours...

>Here's the info, a couple of months ago I met this foreign student in a
>bar while watching football...I'd had seen her before my way to the office
>in the morning but this time I could talk to her.
>
>Talked, got her email..subsequently saw her again on my way to work and
>finally- after two months and her trekking across Southern Africa- we made
>plans for a "date".
>As you know I start work at 3, so brotherman had to rush to accommodate
>this girl..decided I'd like to see that new Will Smith movie, I've never
>been a fan of his but thought this movie might finally change my attitude
>towards "Big Willy".
>
>I knew the budget was tight for this last week, with R400 left, brotherman
>was gasping for monetary breath. So I went against all my instincts and
>decided I'd let her pay for her own movie ticket- she just had to
>understand that I was broke and there was no ways that I could spend my
>last precious pennies on some chick where nothing (you can read that
>however you want to) was guaranteed.
>At the end though I felt like a jerk, now she's probably never calling me
>again. Bugger me!

Ok, a digest of what happened this week.

2004-09-17T18:36:00.001+02:00
Exacty a week since my last post and a lot of things have happened, nothing drastic but still noteworthy. Last week, I think it was Wednesday I met a girl that used to work with me at the newspaper where I did my internship. Problem was although mami was bangin, both us were in relationships at the time...so a broytherman couldn't shit bar the occasional peep. I was never contemplating cheating on my girl but this girl was damn tight.

Fast forward about 18 months and we're on the same bus- I'm heading home while she's on her way to the movies, meeting her friend there. So we talk and I tell her about a poetry evening that a friend is organising. Girl goes gaga about it, tells me she'd like to come.

So fast forward again a week later and we're in this coffee shop listening to some good poetry. She's thanking me for letting her know about the event, we're sort of like together...not quite a date but almost.

So when its gets time for the poetry to end, she tells me she don't want to go home- Whats a brotherman to do? We ended up kissing that night, something I didn't expect, thought I could get her back to the pad and finally break her off with a piece of my magic stick, but alas...she was too drunk and I was working the next morning so like a good friend I put her in a cab and made sure that she got home. That was after an hour of talking in a deserted park about life, love and everything that stresses young adults.

I haven't spoken to her since that night.

Rowdy, rowdy...

2004-09-10T16:02:00.000+02:00
Ok, not quite but today was awesome...haven't a drink and I'm feeling good. Went to see my mother this morning, she's got my 18-month old niece living with her, and the baby is a handfull but cute in her only little way. Took the digital camera along hoping to get some beautiful pictures and she didn't dissappoint.

Work has been cool other than fighting with the night news editor because of style issues. Last night we had a talk and I promised to end my shit and follow the style guide...even if I've never been handed a copy. That's one thing that pisses me off about these newspaper..they expect you to follow a styleguide without having one. What I mean is that there is no "guide" just rules, that they expect you to follow even if at first it doesn't make any sense. It was a frustrating week workwise but I aint complaining.

Can't wait for the end of the month...*suddenly "First of the month by Bone Thugs and Harmony starts blaring through the speakers*

Ain't exactly broke but cash would come in handy right about now.

Still here...

2004-09-08T18:20:00.000+02:00
I can only talk about work because there's nothing else to talk about besides having my dick sucked in the ladies bathroom at one of the sleaziest bars in Cape Town. I admitt, I was a bit tipsy when I saw this girl but I went over to her and told her "I want to fuck"...didn't exactly mean it, considering South Africa has got one the highest rates of HIV/Aids in the world. Just wanted dick sucked...the other bit about "fucking" her was just bravado, fuelled by alcohol.

Have to say that it was one of the worst blowjobs I've ever received...bitch kept biting on my dick. Word of advice for potential cocksuckers: Practice on a banana:-)

I'm out.

It's Friday- the week in review!

2004-09-03T13:19:00.000+02:00
My first couple of days back at the newspaper was aight albeit a bit slow, well not quite but yesterday I worked on a story for almost the whole day and got pissed off this morning when I saw the newspaper. Motherfuckers had edited my story down to something like 380 words, well I wrote well in excess of 450 words...lots of phone calls, and hassles from the newsdesk only for my story to be trimmed down...that was fuckin disheartening but I'll soldier on.

Decided against moving into a new apartment, with the deposit and everything I'll be seriously coming up short this month.

Other than that nothing of significance has happened this week beside seeing the expression of shock on the face of my ex boss when I old him I won't be working for the magazine no more....damn, how can you expect workers to stay loya when you're paying them peanuts?

Hazy, lazy days of summer...

2004-08-30T15:49:00.000+02:00
Went to the beach yesterday...we're experiencing the last days of "winter" and its feeling good, ok for people who don't know, Cape Town must have the mildest winter for a region that is not subtropic...truly awesome, pity about the cold Atlantic ocean, else I would've taken a dip in the sea.

Got there at around twelve and stayed right after 4pm...saw this girl on the beach that looked like she came straight off the set of one of those R Kelly videos- she had thighs that could kill a man but in a nice way:-).

Came back home, listened to the Harry Connick Jr CD, chilled and went out later in the evening and bought another book( will be a doing a lot of reading this month!)

So yeah, its goin down...

2004-08-28T15:36:00.000+02:00
Final couple of days at the old office and I'm more than happy, got paid earlier so tehre's no reason to be bitching. To spoil myself I bought a Harry Connick Jr album- that's so classy!!

Today is a beautiful day, filled with infinite possibilities- shall we head to Bossa Nova, hunting for remnant pussy or go for the jugular and challenge a bitch...decisions, decisions, decisions.

I'm out, got to do some shopping before everything.

I'm leaving

2004-08-25T14:53:00.000+02:00
So I’m finally bowing out, decided to take the offer that was presented to me by the Cape Times…at least I’ll be earning a lot more money for less stress and better working conditions.

Last night I did some male bonding with Gert-Jaap…the guy is seriously whipped (by pussy). It’s been a week since he came back from Namibia and he’s feeling bored at home, having nothing to do. We shot some pool, talked about girls (and how a friend of outs had just broken up with his girlfriend), his new girlfriend, my lack of girlfriends, music, the news, newsroom politics, my new job, unemployment,

I’ve decided to leave my present employer without giving any notice…I’ve got to be shady like that because if he finds out I’m leaving before the time, the motherfucker will have a hard time paying me.

Keep on pushing...

2004-08-18T10:18:00.000+02:00
Just about a week ago a brotherman was depressed and feeling sorry for myself( well I shouldn’t have been considering that I’ve at least got a job). But the fact remains, I’m fucking unhappy in this current situation. I actually cried in bed thinking, how unhappy and lonely I was. That’s fuckin pathetic, but still it needed to happen- just had to get those tears out of my system.

I pretty much made up my mind that I hated working here last Monday, after being accused of spending an inordinate amount of time surfing the web and not contributing much to this shitty publication. Coincidentally my contract runs out at the end of the month and even though I was thinking a of sticking it out, I was on the lookout for anything that would take me away from this place that resembles a Nazi slave labour camp, where people work without contracts and the boss comes down heavily on his workers when he’s having a shitty day. Basically the motherfucker, doesn’t value employees, he values the dollar. Well I value myself and have decided to get the fuck out, before I get driven up a wall and go postal in this confined office.

I’d have many reasons to bitch, first off it would be the money, secondly the working environment and thirdly the bullshit that goes for people management where a policy of divide and rule is used to instil fear in new employees. Shit, I could write a book about this but I’ll spare myself the stress and rather not.

So here comes the good news. Yesterday, out of the blue I got a call from someone who offered me a contract to work at a newspaper, and yes…I’m taking it.

Feeling much better.

2004-08-13T09:54:00.000+02:00
Ok, yesterday I felt like a pile of shit was dropped on my head. Today, the 13th, I'm feeling much better- well it actually started last night when I had a brief conversation with the girl I was eyein...I spotted her reading the bible and knew that I could never date her- hell would have to freeze over before I dated a bible puncher.

I also discovered a good blog, even know I don't care for the writer but his voice needs to be heard even if he's a neo-colonialist with the zeal of a Christian missionary. Check it out...frankmyers.blogspot.com, it sure is interesting reading.

I'm pissed off

2004-08-12T10:03:00.000+02:00
Got depressed last night over several things, first off while watching an episode of Sex and the City, the girl I was trying to hook-up with let it out that she had a boyfriend. I didn't ask her, she just let it out...I'll have to confirm this but so far it doesn't look too good. Then I felt pathetic about being lonely, I'm really lonely but wouldn't consider myself desperate yet! I had to scratch her off my list of possible girlfriends. Meeting women is so damn difficult when you're working and don't have much of a social circle- I can only hang around hiphop loving journalists.

I just feel that I'm not in control of things and its pissing me off.Ok, there's my early morning rant.

I need to come clean...

2004-08-11T15:44:00.000+02:00
I dont have the pics to prove it but lately I've not been cleaning up after myself...leaving the bachelor in disarray( dirty laundry all over the place). Ok so what I'll do this weekend( the weather is gonna be shitty) is do a Spring clean even though we're still experiencing winter. Besides, I can't go anywhere because I aint got much cash to spend, what better to do than clean up.

Went to this show where Max Normal was performing and wasn't disappointed...cool stage presence.

Dj Vadim was nice but nothing out of this world...seen one, seen them all.

Time to post...

2004-08-11T15:04:00.000+02:00
Nothing much has been happening besides this and that. I'm still hustling.

Haven't posted in a while

2004-08-03T16:19:00.000+02:00
Because there's been a lot of mayhem in this place since my inept colleague left( after she realised that she wasn't quite cutting it)...so now there's only two of us working on editoral, the boss has been trying to bury me under a load of work but I'm all bout it. Some days works does stress me out.

Funny thing is that we in South Africa- maybe I should just metion myself here- haven't had much coverage of the Democratic Party National Convention in Boston...I kinda miss CNN on public television, nowadays my primary source for news happens to be the internet- followed by newspapers.

Another week, more drama...

2004-07-30T13:19:00.000+02:00
This week my irritating colleague( I should call her former) walked off the job following an argument with the boss. What do I think? I think she was in the wrong profession...she can't work under pressure.

This weekend I'd like to go to a couple of parties...damn, finally getting paid.

The Brits are excited!!

2004-07-21T14:02:00.000+02:00
After a five year wait it has finally happened....yes, sex, casual sex on UK Big Brother. Africans are actually not far behind because we experienced this hysteria two years ago when our very own housemates did it.

Piss Poor.

2004-07-20T15:31:00.000+02:00
Really feeling shitty today...ok, not exactly but my co-worker is getting annoying by the day...bitching about the smallest issue. When I started out here the bitch was emotional- wanting to leave. Now that she didn't get the jhob that she applied for she's taking her frustrations out on me. I've not helped the situation either by being sarcastic towards her...but fuck her anyway...only the strong survive.

Other than that day's been ok, had an awesome curry at lunch- can you believe it even beat my mother's- which got me in the right mood for the late afternoon and any prospective shitstirrers.

And yeah, I'm trying to see a girl...had her in my sights for about a week now hopefully I can make some progress this week.

Reuters | Latest Financial News / Full News Coverage

2004-07-16T10:14:00.000+02:00
Quality of life Any volunteers who want to go live in Norway? Like I guessed none, but according to the United Nations Human Development Report, Norway came out tops when measured against other countries.

South Africa came in just ahead of Mongolia...WTF? Would you trade the Mongolian Steppes for the beaches in Cape Town and the vibrant(dangerous) nightlife in Joburg?

The message though is that this government has to stop beating around the bush and do something about Aids...stop the birching and just stop this disease whatever it takes.

IOL: SADC

2004-07-15T14:55:00.000+02:00
IOL: SADCMore evidence that something aint right in Zimbabwe.

Whining..

2004-07-14T18:47:00.000+02:00
Tonight I'm feeling really hopeless, well almost. I bumped into an old high school acquaintance- can't call him a friend coz we were never cool like that.

Eight yerars ago he was all cool, today the motherfucker has turned into a money loving self-centred bitch. For the 15 minutes that we talked he went on about how good married life had treated him, that he had a good job, that he had a kid- with one on the way, that he had lots of money to spare, that he was planning to emigrate, that he had a big house....WTF? I mean what am I suppose to say to the guy...I tried being diplomatic and listening to this fool but the more I did the more I had the urge to punch the motherfucker out...bitch had been domesticated by married life.

I almost choked on my own spit when he told me that he had his honeymoon in Beverly Hills- WTF?

I'm not hating but talking about those things to someone that you haven't seen for eight years is fukked up...when I left him I didn't even bother exchanging business cards, an asshole like that I'm hoping not to meet soon.

IBS

2004-07-14T13:39:00.000+02:00
Yesterday felt like that character in the Ladykillers with irritable bowel syndrome...shit was bad. Take note, if you're intending to visit Cape Town, the public toilets in this city are the shitiest- I'm dead serious.

Everywhere I went looking to relieve myself I had to turn around at the door for fear of catching some unmentionable disease that lingers where even the devil would fear to treadf.

3G!!

2004-07-13T16:45:00.000+02:00
Spent the whole day- almost- at Vodacom where they were showing off their 3G service which they're planning to launch by Christmas.

Opinions? I was blown away by the simplicity of how the technology worked. We did some internet surfing, made a video call, and watched CNN via streaming video...which was nice seeing that I'm a fan of the channel.

The speeds at which the 3g devices connect to the network is way- 384kbps- which beats the current WiFi offering hands down.

Ok, let me get back to work:-0

Early morning, smells like...

2004-07-12T12:21:00.000+02:00
food in this office. Discovered this morning- while looking in the mirror- that my skin was starting to get up to its old adolescent tricks again. Yes, I did, discovered no fewer than two pimples...that could've meant impending disaster four years ago but in 2004, I'm chill about it. Must be my diet, since I started living by myself I'm missing my mom's cooked meals- even if their frequency were irregular.

Went to an interesting poetry reading on Saturday- yes, I'm cultured. The evening went okay until the last poet stepped on stage and starting bitching about his life- yes, he's a fag.

That got me to the question, why are gay men constantly bitching about everything?

I'll ask a gay man the next time I happend to bump into one.

Peace out.

Bugger this PC

2004-07-09T14:03:00.000+02:00
I lost more than an hour of work due to a problem with at my workstation. Oh well, its Friday afterall- suppose the PC decided to take off early.

Spiderman

2004-07-09T11:15:00.000+02:00
After endless trailers and hype Spiderman finally opens in South Africa...coool. Dunno If I'll be watching it, maybe I will but after the disappointment of Troy I'm not sure.